7 Ways Have a little Faith my Friend, faith in yourself
For most of my life, fear and faith were so intimately entangled together in my heart and mind that I really didn’t know one from the other. I never really understood that where I put my faith and what (and whom) I believed in was up to me. It seemed only “logical” to have faith in the things I was taught to have faith in. And those things typically brought about sheer terror within me.
I faithfully believed that I had to change who I was. I needed to bend and mold and become who other people told me I should be. I was supposed to put their needs and opinions, first. I was to push down my joy, my hopes, my dreams. I was to dull my shine.
I believed those things because I thought it meant that others would love me.
I faithfully believed that life was supposed to be hard. That nothing worth having came easily. And that even pushing myself beyond my own limits wasn’t enough. That I wasn’t enough.
I believed those things because I thought that one day, I might be able to prove my worth in the world.
I faithfully believed that I needed to be the good girl. To keep my mouth shut and be ashamed of myself. That my crazy mix of emotions made me wrong.
I believed those things because, otherwise, I “knew” that I was destined to a fate of fiery wrath.
And the most painful one of them all:
I faithfully believed that having faith and trust in myself was the deadliest of sins.
I was chronically filled with self-doubt.
What if I’m wrong?
What if they don’t like it?
What if they think I’m selfish?
What if they don’t love me anymore?
Even when it felt crystal clear in my heart, I always seemed to put my faith in my fear.
I chose every single action I took from those fears. I obsessively controlled my food and exercise.
I said what I thought people wanted to hear instead of what I truly felt.
I hid my emotions and pretended to be happy.
And, sadly, I seemed to just use all of that as more evidence for how wrong, and bad, and broken I was.
The fear told me to run like hell from the whispers of my spirit.
The fear told me to stop being myself.
To stop being such a problem to those around me.
To stop believing in myself. And so, I stopped.
But all that running and all that stopping just landed me in a living hell called exhaustion, depression, and debilitating anxiety.
A living hell that looked like madness numbed down through drugs, alcohol, sex with strangers, and way too many cigarettes.
The whispers turned into desperate screams.
Eventually, I couldn’t ignore them anymore and knew that the only way out of that hell was to put my faith back in myself.
To create beliefs that felt good to me and to do the things that felt resonant and true for me.
And through it all, I learned something very, very important:
Fear is not a stop light. And despite the pop culture-isms, it isn’t a green light, either. Fear is a caution light.
It is an invitation to tune in.
To pay attention.
To discern between what is real and what is perceived.
To lean into the present moment.
Is there a tiger?
Is there REALLY a tiger?
Come into the present moment.
Assess what is really True.
Then, from that place of Truth, decide what to do.
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What I’ve found along the way in helping thousands of women over the last 20 plus years of alternative health and healing from childhood trauma and chronic disease
is that, most often, the tiger is only in our minds.
And those fuckers?
They can get you every time.
But when you can’t discern a tiger in your mind from a tiger on the savannah, you are trapped.
Or running like hell.
Because fear’s goal is this: to keep you safe. to protect you from the tiger. to ensure that you don’t get banished from the tribe.
Fear doesn’t care about whether or not you thrive.
It doesn’t give a shit that you want to feel more joy.
Or more ease. Or more grace. Or more love. Or more peace.
It gives a shit about whether or not you are alive. Period.
And fear is pretty clever. It already KNOWS that what you’ve done so far has kept you alive.
It knows that you survived every single time you pretended to be someone you aren’t.
And so, fear is quite content if you keep right on doing that.
So, what do you do when you know that you are being called into trust?
What do you do when you’ve sacrificed yourself and your dreams long enough?
What do you do when you feel trapped by the tiger in your mind?
I am so glad you asked.
How to Have Faith in Yourself (When All You Are Faced with is FEAR)
Having faith in yourself is really about creating a new relationship to fear.
Its your aliveness and relearning how to reset your overloaded nervous system and know you are the one who gets to create your own safety
well that is key to reclaiming your healthy, happy, vital body mind.
It is about doing faith as a verb.
Instead of reacting (or overreacting) to it, respond.
Instead of ignoring it, listen. Instead of banishing it to the dark corners of your mind, bring it into the light.
Instead of going in to coping and numbing down like shoving it down with food, or hours of mindless TV, or by refreshing facebook and email every twelve seconds, or workaholism or obsessive cleaning what if you just allow yourself to feel it.
Allow it to be there, be willing to listen to it’s messages, and then, decide how to proceed.
I call it track, identify and relax your nervous system….
No more projecting, no more running away, no more paralysis and freeze state
No more dimming your light and stopping the joy come to you – it is your birthright to thrive.
This may look a little different for each person, but here is a general idea of my personal process for turning fear into faith.
As you read this, I’d invite you to practice this process with a specific fear you are currently experiencing.
You may also want to keep a journal close by to make note of what you notice.
- Come into the present moment and notice the fear in your body. Notice, literally, how it feels. And breathe into the feeling. Allow it to be there and do it’s thing. Remember, the fear is always trying to protect you, which while often misguided, is an instinct of love.
- After you have felt the feeling in your body, notice what the fear is saying in your mind. Look for those what-if type questions I mentioned above. Let the fear speak it’s whole peace while you listen with a compassionate ear.
- Observe what the fear is saying without judgement, as if you were a scientist. Then, look for the facts. What is actually true here? Is there REALLY a tiger?
- Once you’ve discerned what is real from what is perceived, thank the fear for trying to keep you safe.You may also want to remind the fear that you’ve totally got this.
- Reconnect with why you are doing what you’ve been afraid to do. What sort of meaning would doing that thing bring to your life? What are the benefits of doing that thing? Are those benefits worth experiencing some fear along the way?
- Now, look at ALL the options for how to proceed. Find an action that feels aligned with your intentions but also feels like a bit of a stretch. You don’t want the action to send you running for the hills. You want to step outside of your comfort zone, not abandon it altogether. You want to play at your edge.
- Do that action. And then, when the tiger does not chew you up and spit you out, use that as evidence for the next time. Celebrate!!
You’ve got this. You really do. Your job is to remember that – even in the face of fear you are faith, trust, love, grace and kindness.
And if you find yourself caught in the voice of the inner saboteur and cannot see the faith of your wise self who knows you are enough
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It is time, to come home to your heart filled, faith and grace of living your best life in your true divine nature.
I would love to know what you notice as you track your emotions, feel your soul urge through your beautiful body.
Leave a comment below and shine your light in celebration of your shadow because when you do, you share your light with others to do the same!